Losing my oomph
I start my day off full of good intentions but by the end of the day, I have ticked not one thing off my list. I have frittered the day away doing what exactly? Here are a choice few: browsing for information on the internet that I don't need, manically hitting the next button on the blogger bar and reading blogs that I don't even enjoy, channel surfing. I have books to read, goals to meet, a journal to write in, ideas to put on paper, people to get back to, groups to keep up with but they all get pushed to the back burner by my incomprehensible compulsion to fill my day with useless activity. This isn't me at all so that's what makes me even more annoyed with myself because it is so out of the norm for me. Everything has suddenly become a 'yeah, whatever...'
I feel pressured, like my head is about to pop open. Unfulfilled! Lacking in ... something but not really knowing what. I am irritable, frustrated. I am not where I want to be but can't seem to get myself going.
I seem to have lost the oomph I begun the year with.